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imnotnormalsohi:
Doesn’t matter how much people tell me they are there for me and if I need to, I can talk to them, I still feel like I’m a wast of time and space and that I’m not worth enough for someone to listen because what I feel I may sound stupid , like there is no point in what I am saying. It hurts knowing that I can’t explain what I feel. It hurts looking at my mum just after I’ve spend an hour crying in the safety of my room, it hurts knowing that I didn’t turn out the way she wanted her first born child to be, the same with my dad. It feels like I let them down the day I was born. I let them down because i brought more trouble than they ever wanted. Knowing, feeling this doesn’t feel like I’m worth it. Sometimes I don’t even care what happens because I know that ever since i can remember i had already had enough of life. People are always saying that it gets better but as i got older, as i grew up I stopped hoping and began to give up. Thats the annoying part about this - I’ve always known that I don’t belong in the real world, I don’t fit in.